A Quick Emotion Stuffed Poly-Related Rant

The deja vu of the scenario I am flirting with at present is alarming yet I have acknowledged the warning signs, made up my mind and told the well meaning warning signs to go for a long walk off a short pier. I know what I want (which feels exhilarating). I admittedly want too much, but I know the difference between what I want and what I expect. I don't expect to get everything I want but probably won't let it stop me from hoping.

I have a partner in crime this time (and I will refer to him as such henceforth). Which.is.awesome. He is one of the warning signs that I have ever so politely ignored but he has been cool (and reckless) enough to plunge head on into this with me so far. And so far... it's been great fun.

The downside is that I am falling for someone that I have fallen for before. ...Which should be warning enough against this whole thing. But the kicker is: They are too dense to get it.  They are immature, reckless, prone to self pity, they dwell on the past more then the present and attract drama. Which seems to be some of the emotional qualities I'm so subconsciously attracted to (except for the drama). 

Wisely, I know I should use caution. My 'good' angel is kicking me aside the head and screaming at me to put on the brakes, use some of that old fashioned rational I was born with, and be patient. And half of me wants to listen. I don't want another broken heart and above all, don't want to hurt my partner-in-crime's heart.

I could bluntly pursue it and make my intentions known. Although, perhaps with some tact this time. My past attempts at blunt and painfully honest communication have always been just that, painful. But I just want to grab him by his mopey ears and shout out my feelings for him into his stupid face every time we kiss.

Regardless of the final actions and reactions. I am thankful to be in a point in my life, mental state within myself and with someone one so special in my life where I can be... here. At another exciting romantic (and sexual) turning point full of the unknown and just enjoy the ride.